"Go on. Tell her what I told you. She'll never notice." That's the last thing I heard Anne said before she pushed me towards Dane. But I can't get myself to tell Dane something that I know is not true. So I chickened out (Anne's own words) and left.
"Hay. Ewan ko ba sa iyo. Bakit 'yun lang sasabihin mo, hindi mo pa magawa. Bahala ka. Ikaw din mahihirapan."
I ignored her and nagmadali akong pumunta sa cubicle ko. Ayoko nang marinig pa ang mga sinasabi niya. Bakit ba niya ako pinipilit sa ayaw kong gawin? Buhay ko naman 'to. I choose how to live my life. I choose what to say to other people.
Can you blame me for not doing what she wants me to do? Can you blame me for making my own choices? I don't think so. Buti na lang, when Anne was about to approach me sa cubicle ko (I know what she will do: i-na-nag niya nanaman ako), dumating ang boss namin. Nang makita ni Anne boss namin, dali-dali siyang pumunta sa cubicle niya at nagkunwari na nagtatype.
I can't believe our boss saved the day.
written 6:58am
This is the worst storm I've ever experienced (as far as I can remember). I pity my fellow Filipinos who were stuck in traffic because of the floods and those who needed to evacuate because it's really flooded even in their own homes.
Water slowly "crept" in our house but good thing it's only 'til the soles of the feet; nothing major.
I sometimes get irritated to some people who kept on complaining about their situation: - I can't get out of the house because it's flooded outside!
- Our house is flooded knee-deep!
- Internet was disconnected!
- Power was cut off!
Why complain? Can't you just say... - I'm so blessed because even if I can't get out of our house, I'm still safe and dry inside.
- I'm so blessed because the flood inside our house is only knee-deep. Some people needed to evacuate because only the roof of their house is not covered with flood.
- At least our internet provider has something to disconnect. I'm so blessed that I have my own internet connection. Some people need to go to internet shops just to search the net.
- It's a good thing Meralco cut off the power to prevent fire.
We are so blessed. We still have houses where we can be safe and dry. Some Filipinos are just living under the bridge. We are so blessed that power was cut off. At least further damage can be avoided.
My fellow Filipinos, this is the time to be thankful for what we have. This is also the time to stop being so selfish; to stop thinking about ourselves only. There are people who are experiencing a lot worst than what we're experiencing. Let us not indulge in self-pity. Instead of whining, let's just pray for our fellow Filipinos that are REALLY affected because of Ondoy.
To pray is the only thing we can do to help (if you cannot donate relief goods or clothes to those in need). Pray for their strength, for their faith, for their health. Also, pray that they will never forget that even if the Philippines is full of chaos, GOD IS STILL IN CONTROL.
Woke up raining. Dragged myself to school. Fil class. By 10am, classes were suspended.
Carmelli and I decided to take the jeep going to Rizal Ave because we already knew that it's already flooded.
And so my adventure starts...
Nung bumaba kami ng jeep, biglang nagbaha na sa tinatapakan namin. Oh my. Namihasa pa ang mga snatchers. Madaming tinututukan na students so they will give the snatchers their phones. We parted ways na because magkaiba kami ng dadaanan. Hindi na ako makatawid because it's already flooded. So tinawag ko na si kuya na nagpepedicab kung pwede ba na ihatid ako sa Sta. Cruz church. Bente daw ang bayad. Pumayag na ako.
Almost 30 minutes ako nakaupo sa pedicab dahil hindi makadaan sa mga jeep yung driver kasi ang traffic. Buti nakadaan din. Super ang ulan. Naihatid na ako sa sakayan ng jeep papunta sa house namin. Imbis na P20 lang ang ibinigay ko sa driver, I gave him P40. Naaawa ako sa kanya. Matanda na siya. Walang bubong yung pedicab niya for his protection. At kapote na butas-butas lang ang suot niya pangcover. Kung may pagkain at extra pera lang ako, I swear, I will give him everything I have.
Texted my mom to fetch me sa kanto ng bahay to give me boots. Good thing she immediately replied and kaagad siya nagpunta.
This is my first time to experience all of these.
Dagdag pa na baha na sa loob, as in LOOB, ng bahay. Hindi lang sa garage, kundi sa loob. Nasa island study table na ako ngayon.
God, please, pahintuin Niyo na po ang ulan. OK lang po sanang umuulan, huwag lang magbaha. Ang dami na pong nasasalanta. Please Lord. Paalisin Niyo na po si Ondoy. :((
I feel so sad. Wala akong magawa to help. All I can do is pray for everyone.
We are now suffering the consequences of our actions. Dahil sa kawalan ng disiplina ng mga tao sa pagtatapon ng basura, tayo na tuloy ngayon ang nagsusuffer. When will we ever learn? :(
Yesterday (night) My mom texted me and asked me to call up Tita Lydia (my paternal grandmother's bestfriend) and ask if she knows Dr. Harvey Uy's clinic hours. (FYI: Dr. Uy is mom and Tita Lydia's ophthalmologist. My mom had retinal detachment a few years ago and Dr. Uy was the one who treated her.) She was complaining of seeing "lightnings" when closing her eyes. So I called up Tita Lydia and asked her what my mom was asking.
Today (morning) Upon knowing that Dr. Uy has clinic hours today at Rockwell, my mom and dad immediately went to his clinic.
Today (lunch time) Upon arriving here, Tita Norma was reading mom's text message to my other titas. I checked my phone and saw that my mom texted me the same thing that my tita was reading:
"I Have gud news. My eyes are heald. Blesing in disguise...dr uy is gving bong free cataract surgery sa rokwel p, d s pgh. Isnt God sooo amazing. Daan kmi bnondo"
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Now, isn't that what you call a miracle?
My dad is suffering from cataract for more than a year now. He keeps putting off his surgery because he keeps on telling us that he doesn't want to use the money that is reserved for my education. He keeps on telling us that he still doesn't need it (even if we all know he needs it badly). Talk about sacrifice. He keeps on telling us that he will have his surgery when we finally get to sell our lots.
At times, I can see my dad reading the newspaper with the newspaper so close to his eyes. Whenever he drives, I'm so nervous because he cannot see the road clearly. He cannot drive when it's dark because it's not safe for him. He really suffered. He didn't want to use the money for me. He was willing to sacrifice his vision just so I can study. Just so they can give me what I need: a good education.
And because of his sacrifice, God gave us more than we could ever hope for. We were praying that God will help us sell our lots so my dad can have his eye operated at PGH (because it's cheaper there). But what God did was He touched Dr. Uy's heart. Dad will be having his surgery not in PGH, but in Rockwell.
And the best part is: IT'S FREE.
Seriously, ang yayabang niyo.
It's just a cheerdance competition for goodness sake! Tapos kung tumira kayo akala niyo sino kayo. Know the facts first. You are too biased.
You're telling that we cannot spell things correctly? Duh. Duh. And more duh. You are way below the belt.
When I transferred, I learned to be humble. So sana, kayo din, learn how to be humble.
It's OK na mainis kayo that you didn't win. But huwag niyo sabihan ng kung ano-ano ang nanalo just because naiinis kayo that you didn't win. You can still try next time.
Lahat tayo gusto manalo. Natalo din kami dati. Pero you know what we did? WE DID OUR BEST THIS YEAR TO WIN. AND WE DID.
Lumugar naman kayo sa mga sinasabi niyo. What you're doing/saying is way below the belt.
 | @_@ | Sep 7, '09 4:29 AM
for everyone |
I seriously need to change my study habits.
My mind functions best from 7pm onwards. Ayun tuloy, lagi akong puyat whenever I study. Kahit anong pilit ko mag-aral ng morning and afternoon, wala talaga. Matagal ko nang ginagawa yun pero wala rin. Hehehehehe.
Night person talaga ako.
*ang itim na tuloy ng ilalim ng mata ko* 
You know the feeling of not buying anything too extravagant because you want to save and put your money in the bank (sayang ang interest!) but when you find something that you really really really want, you'll never think twice buying it (even if it means using your savings)?
Well, that's what I felt today.
While walking outside the school, I saw a lady selling almost all of Nicholas Sparks' books (second hand) for only PHP 180 each. It's really a great buy! But still, I took time to think about buying the books (yes, books). But after how many minutes, I decided to "splurge" and buy two of his books, The Choice and True Believer. I wanted to buy his other book, The Lucky One, but I thought that two books are enough. For now.
Did I regret buying the books? Of course not! Are you kidding me? Reading makes me calm. Whenever I read, it takes me to places I've never been. When I read, I can really relate to the characters in the book and I love it. Reading takes me to a world I never knew existed. It makes me travel using my imagination.
I'm so glad I bought those books. Even if it meant using some of my savings.
I will never get tired of buying books. NEVER.
By the way, nakatawad pa ako! Hahahaha! 
Thank You Lord for the blessings!
So I have a secret rivalry with someone, huh. I didn't know that until today. Well, I sort of thought that maybe I do have a rivalry with that someone but it was just confirmed today.
This is the reason why I love Kokology. I get to know myself more. I love it.
I wonder what else will be revealed to me in the following days?
 Thanks for visiting me, my chef, even if it was very windy and it was raining really hard because of 'Isang'. Thanks for wanting to spend your day off with me. Thanks for choosing to be with me even if you can just stay home and rest. Thank you for making this little sacrifice for us. Thank you for making me feel loved. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. May God be with you as you go home tonight. :)
Pinasagot ko 'yung psych analysis test ni ma'am sa Psy 103 kay Eph kahapon when we met. Sagot niya sa gaano kataas ang fence, kasing taas lang daw nung strawberry plant. Nung tinanong ko ilan kukunin niya, wala daw siyang kukunin kasi masama daw yun.
Oh di ba? Bongga! I'm so blessed to have him!
SY0524 lang nakakaintindi sa akin kung bakit. Hehehe.
More psych analysis! Moooooore!
*click picture to vote*
Since the overnight at Chellie's place, pabalik balik ang ubo't sipon ko but I didn't mind it then because I know that paiba-iba ang weather so it's quite normal for a person to be sick.
Last Thursday, my head was really aching so I decided to sleep the whole day even if I have 3 exams (supposed to be 3 exams but our Math 2N exam didn't push through) because I know I needed to rest to be able to go to school.
The day after that, Friday, I checked my temperature before going to school: 37.7. So may sinat. But still, the guard let me in (maybe dahil napawisan ako papasok ng school, nawala sinat ko). I was feeling really good (except for the cough and cold) sa school. Before ako umuwi, I checked my temperature again (I brought my thermometer hehehe): 37.9. Not good. Still, hindi pa rin ako tinatamlay or whatever.
Upon arriving sa house, I checked my temperature again: 38:6. I texted my mom so she decided to come here earlier than expected. I needed to rest because ang init na ng katawan ko so I slept 'til 8pm. Pagkagising ko, at pagdating din ng mom ko, I checked my temp again: 39. Not really good. So we decided to go to our neighbor who is a pediatrician (yes, pedia pa rin ako dahil 'til 21 ang pedia :)) and a director of a hospital and nagpa-check-up ako. She said that hindi daw maganda ang pasok ng air sa right lung ko and she's diagnosing me with bronchi pneumonia. Under observation pa daw ako for a week. I have to take antibiotics for a week and if after a week, I still have fever, cough, and cold, or cough and cold or if hindi pa rin ako makahinga nang maayos, magpa-chest x-ray na daw ako.
Kahit na pa yun ang sinabi niya, hindi ko pa rin tinatanggap yun. I know God already healed me and He will continue to make me healthy. I know He using the antibiotics I'm taking to make me feel better kaya hindi ko na kailangan pa magpa-chest x-ray after a week. I KNOW I AM HEALED BECAUSE GOD IS MY HEALER.
Si Lazarus nga, patay na, pero nabuhay pa ni God eh. Super impossible nun, di ba? Ako, simpleng sakit lang, di ba? Kayang kaya ni God yan!
When I was still a kid, nagka-pneumonia na ako. Mas malala pa nga noon kasi I even started to vomit and may blood na vomit ko nun. I had to take antibiotics that were too big for my age. Ngayon, ubo, sipon, at lagnat lang ang meron ako. I don't even feel na may sakit ako (meaning, matamlay). Kaya I know wala lang 'to. And I know kayang kaya ako pagalingin ni God.
I believe that God will heal me. :)
Pahinga ka muna. Wag k p presur s exam. Mas mhlg ang buhay. Cge pray kita. Lav u. Drink plenty of tubig. -from my mom
Grabe. I still haven't studied for my 3 exams tomorrow. Ang dami pa namang dapat aralin. Whole day lang akong natulog because I am not really feeling well.
I hope that I will get better soon para makapag-aral na ako.
| Psy 107 | Jun 18, '09 7:48 AM
for everyone |
Because I am so excited... I researched about physiological/biological psychology...
Physiological psychology Physiological psychology is a subdivision of biological psychology that studies the neural mechanisms of perception and behavior through direct manipulation of the brains of nonhuman animal subjects in controlled experiments. Unlike other subdivisions within biological psychology, the main focus of physiological psychological research is the development of theories that explain brain-behavior relationships rather than the development of research that has translational value. It is sometimes alternatively called psychophysiology, and in recent years also cognitive neuroscience.
One example of physiological psychology research is the study of the role of the hippocampus in learning and memory. This can be achieved by surgical removal of the hippocampus from the rat brain followed by an assessment of memory tasks by that same rat.
In the past, physiological psychologists received much of their training in psychology departments in major universities. Currently, physiological psychologists are also being trained in behavioral neuroscience or biological psychology programs that are affiliated with psychology departments, or in interdisciplinary neuroscience programs.
Biological Psychology In psychology, biological psychology, also known as biopsychology or psychobiology is the application of the principles of biology, in particular neurobiology, to the study of mental processes and behavior. A psychobiologist, for instance, may compare the unfamiliar imprinting behavior in goslings to the early attachment behavior in human infants and construct theory around these two phenomena. Biological psychologists may often be interested in measuring some biological variable, e.g. an anatomical, physiological, or genetic variable, in an attempt to relate it quantitatively or qualitatively to a psychological or behavioral variable, and thus contribute to evidence based practice.
I cannot wait!!!!!!!!
| Proud =) | Jun 15, '09 10:05 PM
for everyone |
I congratulate my chef for his new job.
He's now working at a fine dining restaurant in Makati. The owners of the restaurant are the same owners of Embassy (excluding Yap). His position is the third highest position a chef in that restaurant can get.
The restaurant is not yet open but it will soon be and he just started his training yesterday. His soon-to-be salary? Well, it will be 60% higher than his previous salary when he was still working in Laguna. =)
He still hasn't find a place where he will permanently live (hopefully near his working place) so right now, he's temporarily staying at his grandmother's house just 10 minutes (30 minutes tops!) away from our house in Manila! Yey! He's now just an LRT (or a jeepney) ride away from me. =)
God is so good to him! So much blessings!
Congratulations my chef Eph. =) I'm so proud of you.
* tahimik pero deadly... hikhikhik *
| 19 days | May 18, '09 1:35 AM
for everyone |
I just realized...
After 19 days, pasukan nanaman.
I do not know if I should be happy or sad. 
 April 30, 2009 issue of The Philippine Star, Food and Lifestyle Section.
Ayun oh! Hahaha. Nasa ad nanaman chef ko. =)
Dad: Nasaan na 'yung infinity? Nandito ba?Me: Anong pong infinity?Dad: 'Yung...Me: Ah visibility! Opo andito.Dad: Ah visibility pala 'yun.(we were talking about Globe's Visibility) 
| Blush | Mar 31, '09 5:53 AM
for everyone |
My chef/hon/honey q/boyfriend/dhie,I love you so much. Thanks for dedicating this song to me. Lalo tuloy kita namimiss! Uwi ka na! Daliiiiiii! Always,Your dra/hon/honey q/gurlfriend/mhieForevermore
by Side A
There are times
When i just want to look at your face
With the stars in the night
There are times
When I just want to feel your embrace
In the cold of the night
I just can't believe that you are mine now
You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just cant compare you with
Anything in this world
You're all I need to be with forevermore
All those years
I've longed to hold you in my arms
I've been dreaming of you
Every night
I've been watching all the stars that fall down
Wishing you would be mine
I just can't believe that you are mine now
You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just cant compare you with
Anything in this world
You're all I need to be with forevermore
Time and again
There are these changes that we cannot end
Sure as time
Keeps going on and on
My love for you will be forevermore
I just can't believe that you are mine now
You were just a dream that I once knew
I never thought I would be right for you
I just can't compare you with
Anything in this world
As endless as forever
Our love will stay together
you're all I need to be with forevermore
(as endless as forever)
(our love will stay together)
You're all I need to be with forevermore...
| 021909 | Mar 19, '09 12:02 AM
for everyone |
Ano nangyari nung 021909?!
Tell me, what happened???!
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